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"I would love to spend forever with you…

I love you mahal."

Why can’t I show him that I care too much? What am I afraid of?

I sat there with him. Tears were staining his eyes. I could tell how much I had hurt him.. It hurts me too.

I don’t want to show him how much it breaks my world. But it does show. I don’t know if life would still be complete without him. I do love him too much to let go.

Lots of guys had cried on me lots of times before. I just don’t know his tears had meant that much to me. If only I could take all the anger and fear he felt that night. I would. But, I broke his world.

I really love him too much to let him go. He fixed my world, I can’t dare break his. If only things weren’t too complicated on my part… If only I would learn to love like he does.

Then maybe, I won’t see those damn tears fall again from his eyes.. I would never hurt him again. Not ever.

I love him.

He’s confused. I don’t want him to be confused because I know it will confuse me too. I’m with him now. I’m happy… But somehow, shadows of those angel’s wings still hover over me as I grasp the devil’s hand. Am I doing the right thing?

I know I am. I’m happy with him. He’s turned my world around and I know I’ll die without him. I love him too much to let him go. He’s not as angelic as the other one, but I love him. And I’m willing to take risks for this feeling. It’s a decision that I don’t regret. He means everything to me.

But the angel still cared. I know he still does. I can feel it. but I’m not sure if it will last forever. I don’t know if I want it to stay forever… I think it won’t be worth it.

My heart beats for another one now. It will continue beating for him until it beats no more. This may be a wrong decision for others… but I’m not regretting it. We’re willing to make things right for both of us. I hope we really do - coz’ I’m not quitting on him.

And I hope he’s not quitting on me too.

Saigo No Kisu Wa
Tabako No Flavor Ga Shita
Ngakute Setsunai Kaori
Ashita No Imagoro Niwa
Anata Wa Doki Ni Irun Darou
Dare Wo Omotterun Darou

You Are Always Gonna Be My Love
Itsuka Dareka To Mata Koi Ni Ochitemo
I’ll Remeber To Love
You Taught Me How
You Are Always Gonna Be The One
Ima Wa Mada Kanashii Love Song
Atarashii Uta Utaeru Made

Tachidomaru Jikan Ga
Ugokidasou To Shiteru
Wasuretakunai Koto Bakari

Ashita No Imagoro Niwa
Watashi Wa Kitto Naiteru
Anata Wo Omotterun Darou

You Will Always Be Inside My Heart
Itsumo Anata Dake No Basho Ga Aru Kara
I Hope That I Have A Place In Your Heart Too
Now And Foreve
R You Are Still The One
Ima Wa Mada Kanashii Love Song
Atarashii Uta Utaeru Made

You Are Always Gonna Be My Love
Itsuka Dareka To Mata Koi Ni Ochitemo
I’ll Remeber To Love
You Taught Me How
You Are Always Gonna Be The One
Ima Wa Mada Kanashii Love Song
Now And Forever
Ever…