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For all the times
I felt cheated

I complained

You know how I love to complain

For all the wrongs
I repeated

Though I was to blame
I still cursed that rain

I didn’t have a prayer - didn’t have a clue

And then out of the blue

God gave me you
To show me what’s real

There’s more to life than just how I feel

And all that I’m worth
Is right before my eyes

And all that I live for
Though I didn’t know why

Now I do

Cuz God gave me you

For all the times
I wore my self pity

Like a favorite shirt

All wrapped up
In that hurt

For every glass I saw
I saw half empty

Now it overflows like a river through my soul

From every doubt I had
I’m finally free

And I truly believe

God gave me you
To show me what’s real

There’s more to life
Than just how I feel

And all that I’m worth
Is right before my eyes

And all that I live for

Though I didn’t know why

Now I do

Cuz God gave me you

In your arms I’m someone new

With every tender kiss from you

Oh must confess
I’ve been blessed

God gave me you
To show me what’s real

There’s more to life
Than just how I feel

And all that I’m worth
Is right before my eyes

And all that I live for
Though I didn’t know why

Now I do

Cuz God gave me you

-KAIZER IRIS-
XIIVIIMMVII

"I Wanna Grow Old With You"
Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

I’m tired. Damn tired…

I just wish the world would open up and swallow me so I would be forever lost in Hades’ cradle. I want to cry but somehow, tears weren’t even enough to take it all away.

I need to rest but I can’t… Why can’t I show them I had enough? Why are they so insensitive to feel what I really want them to feel… I’m tired.

Tired of playing hide and seek with people who never really cared more than see me imprisoned in the walls of false security. I’m tired.

Damn, why can’t they see what I want them to see?! Why can’t I have the courage to tell them the truth. I am so tired. No one’s even there to get me out of this pain. If there would only be one.

You see me happy - smiling whenever we meet. They cloud my dark being. My lost being. Sometimes, it really is hard to guess what I really want - or need.

I’m tired. I need rest. Won’t somebody stop me from doing stupid stuff such as this?