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Times…

February 17, 2008

There are just these
times

when I want you to
stay and you still go away.

Times when I don’t
have reasons to hold you

and don’t have
reasons to smile back.

Times when I want you
to walk me home

yet I still say you
have to go home yourself.

Times when I just
have to keep quiet,

Because I know I’ll
still be angry even if I say anything.

There are times when
I don’t want to see you

Or don’t want you to
see me.

Times when I walk
away because I don’t want you

To see that I’m
angry.

Times when I don’t
say sorry because

I honestly don’t want
to.

Or times when I’m
tempted to say sorry

Since I don’t have a
choice.

There are lots of
times

When I want to shout
at you for walking away

On me.

For leaving me
clueless on what you’re feeling

Because you never say
a word to me.

There are times when
I really want to say I hate you

And not care

Even if I left you
crying in the rain.

When I want to let
go,

Because I don’t feel
the same way anymore.

But here I am,
staying.

I don’t know why…

Maybe, I really mean
it when I say I love you.

And I want to give it
one more shot

- maybe, another try.

-case 12-

I’m losing my grip on
this. Help me not to let go.

Well, I guess, no one will be. I don’t care. I hope I mean it this time. I keep on saying this and then end up getting angry again. I hate it when I have to do this. I guess, this would have to be the last. I hope so…

I don’t know.

I don’t care. Don’t ask me again cuz’ I’m not gonna talk.

Who cares?!

I don’t. Anyway,some things are more important. Why fill in the spaces?

yes, some things are maybe MORE important.