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Today’s Quote: It’s so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry. – Innocence (Avril Lavigne)

Today’s Happiness Indicator: I’m wearing an orange T-shirt! Haha!

**Happiness

I was thinking of this as next year’s theme of The Collage. *That is if they still make me editor, though. Haha!*

What makes Kai so happy today?

1. Well, I realized that I don’t have to rely on others to make me happy… that I could be happy anytime I want to and in any way I want to. *grins*

2. The thorns have roses today. *hallelujah!

3. I didn’t get my usual pancit canton – bagoong combo for breakfast since I’m still coughing (no, barking). That means, I’d get well soon since I’m on a healthy living diet.

4. I had Coke again. Yey!

5. I’m back in the cube and laughing at Tom and Jerry.

6. I was listening to “Take It to the Floor” this morning and swaying my hips to the rhythm too. *Weird!

7. The night lamp won’t work. I won’t get eyebags from sleeping late anymore. Haha!

8. Someone said that I look good if I tie up my hair in a ponytail. *Seriously? Hahaha!

9. I’m reading Manga online. *I missed Naruto and Gaara!

10. Ms Chief (Mischief) is sharing things to me. Felt good to be trusted.

These thoughts are randomly arranged though. These are just some things that make me happy everyday… and yeah! It actually works. I’m feeling good inside and I guess it’s just what matters. I’m happy.(**,)

1. Life is beautiful. You don’t have to cry for stupidity because it will exist.

2. People would make you look stupid. But you can always clear yourself out of it.

3. Your intention is the most important thing. It has to be reasonable.

4. You don’t need to force yourself on people. If they want you, then they want you. If not, they could care less about you.

5. I can change the way i think. haha

6.  The wind would always feel good on my face. [even if I get windburned.]

7. I have to think of my priorities.

8. I can forget, if I’d be willing to.

9. I will be able to face reality soon. Right now, my eyes are still clouded with tears. Duh.

10. I have to spend more times in the kitchen. Blah. Blah. Blah.

I ran out of coke and coffee that night. I soo wanted to sleep [like badly!], but i can’t. Sometimes i feel like walking out to the kitchen, wash my mug, put it back in the cupboard and go to sleep…but i kept holding on to that stupid thing. Red ants started attacking me and I moved to the next bed.

Yeah, there were tears. It felt endless. It felt like i didn’t want to stop.

Somehow i did. It took a lot of prayers and acceptance. I won’t care for forgiveness anymore. I can’t forgive, am not willing to… Ifelt my head hit my knees as the mug hit the floor…

I’m like the mug at times - empty. broken thing.

I wiped my tears and glued the pieces back. Now it looks good as new.

Felt good to have moved on.